when was the last time i just stepped out of the door and traveled to where my heart told me to ? when was the last time i felt fearless and simply follow my heart? do you still remember the reckless sharlin who was fearless and completely disregard people's comments but her own heart? when was the last time she sent herself free in the spring of the desert? has she lost herself and become too timid to do what she wants? is she just wasting her life worrying about how to cover the life expense and how much she could make without quitting the job without paying more attention to what exactly she loves best? Have I lost myself??????
mam asked me when exactly i am planning to attend australia work and travel programm when we were waitting outside of the train station last sunday. i was guttered to give a proper answer as the fear of losing something was sailing around the bottom of my heart. ha..i gradually become exactly that kind of coward who only has big dream but lacking of execution..i am really feeling so ashamed of myself right now. how did i start to forget what i said to Chris( the old randon american gentleman i met in scotland) that i would keep walking forward without fear even the future is unclear? do you still the time you still smiled even you did not know where to stay for the nite? security was bullshit but freedom was slogan...but you have totally changed into someone who is totally a sheep like...no difference from the others.
why are you worrying about where to locate your expensive furniture when you go out to travel? why are you worrying about where to find a job when you return? with these much of worry ahead you, you could go nowhere and you will never grow in this way...totally out of question. but why are you doing this ?
when realsharlin VS more-experienced and conscious sharlin, who will win the battle? what will be the best solution for both?
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