To Phil

Dear Phil

as i have tried to avoid of keeping regular contact with you but still have so many things i must confess, writting on blog is probably the only way to express myself.

sorry i did not mean to reply you short but whenever i think about you, the scar in my heart is burning me badly, which i have to run away for a brief break. whenever i think about you, tears will drop down immediately. i don;t know how much longer it will take me to forget you and treat u only as a friend but from this moment i must stay away from you before i kill myself.

in every relationship there is always a pitfall which both people must cope with together. as both of us have agreed, nothing is going to be perfect so two options for you. one is to make compromise or cut off this relationship. it can be as simple as picking up one but u will probably reply me saying is much easier than doing. but look at me i told u that i would try to lighten our relationship and move on..here i am. i have been moving on even i had spent a few nights crashed down my knees and crying so hard in the corner. life is all about the choices you make and now u are just in one of the crossroad of the life so be brave my boy.