meaningless

Dear my Heavenly Father

in ecckesuastes the teacher shows that there is purpose and balance to all things even in this present life.just as there is time to die,there is a time to live. just as there is a time for sorrow,there is a time for joy. and everyday life takes on significance in the enjoyment of one's work and the happiness of human love. the message is aimed directly at the young people for whom much of the wisdom literature is intended. in conclusion the teacher urges that all things find their fulfillment in acknowledging the creator's purpose for mankind and in obeying his will.

it is the lesson you have taught Solomon. who is probably the wisest person in the history but still he found his life was meaningless after drifting away from His Lord, my God. i must confess i totally feel exactly the same, i don;t need to be as sucessful as he was to taste the dryness and deepest heartcry overwhlemingly coming out of my soul without invovling you in my daily life. from last night to this hour, i have not really communicated/prayed or read your words, somehow i find my joy disappeared and my heart is troubled by desperation. i really don;t want to live in world without you, you are everything i have and everything i need but i don;t understand how come i never learnt well to discipline myself despite the fact of knowing what is the best and most joyful, but still my deeds totally turn opposite to what i want to do. when can i stop being rebellious and knee down to worship you only , MY LORD MY SAVIOR. save me from this dead trap and help me to live a life only for you.